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I’m thinking about buying one, but before I do just wanted to know if anyone else out there has ever tried it, and did anyone get any results ? thanks!

I’m the smallest I’ve been in a longgggg time at 180lbs (yes I know that’s not small).    I’ve lost some weight yes, but now that I’m not in denial about what I see in the mirror, now that I’m finally facing who I am, what I’ve become,  I feel HUGE!  And I just can’t believe I ever let myself get to this state in the first place.   I’m not trying to have a pitty party here.   I just don’t understand how I could be so in denial?  Anyone else been going through this?  It’s like I see myself in the mirror every single day, and then one day,  I finally actually paid attention, it’s like I wasn’t blind anymore, and I wanted to cry.   I wanted to scream, I hate what I’ve become.   I feel so STUCK inside this BODY!  My stomach is FAT,  my ass is FLAT yet still FAT, my boobs are HUGE and they kill my back.  (not trying to gross anyone out lol).   I don’t like anything about it!  I don’t want it anymore!

I decided to change it about a year ago.   I’ve lost a total of  47lbs.  Mostly from just eating less, moving more, not to mention I’m working now.    But now that I’ve hit 180, the weight isn’t just falling off anymore.   So I’ve been kicking it in to high gear (or at least trying,  I’m still VERY out of shape).   I’ve been going to the gym EVERY single day, even if it’s only for 30 mins (sometimes that’s all I have when I get off work, our gym closes at 9, how lame is that?)   I shoot for about an hour every day though.   I’ve been using the eliptical, and the treadmill.   I find myself out of breath just walking fast.  It’s very disappointing.   I went to wal-mart tonight and brought me one of those exercise balls, and some 5lb weights.    I have the best intentions,  I just don’t know where to start!

I’m trying to improve my diet, but it’s like I can’t figure it out.   If I eat to much, I don’t lose weight, if I don’t eat enough I don’t have ANY energy and my workouts suck.  Anyone know any really good energy foods to snack on before hitting the gym?

Anyone have any good advise, or stories, please share.

I’m having a real battle right now.  I don’t know why I’m so hungry but I’ve ate PLENTY today.  There’s some mac & cheese in the kitchen… And I know if I make it, I’ll probably eat the whole box because I’m so hungry right now.  It’s not even healthy, I really really don’t want it, at the same time I really feel like I NEED IT.

 I’ve come to terms with the facts I’m a food addict.  And I tell myself I’ll start over tomorrow, but will tomorrow ever come? Probably not if I keep putting it off like this.   I want to be healthy and comfortable in my own skin but it will probably never happen for me at this rate.

I know it sounds stupid, but I came on here to fight the craving for mac & cheese.  lol

And I didn’t lose any weight

I didn’t gain any either though.. which is good.

I just stayed the same! It’s my fault though.   I made some really bad choices this week.  I think I’ve been stressing out to much, and when I do that I over eat.   And I’ve noticed when I don’t count calories, and I don’t write down what I eat, I eat way more!! It’s like being in denial.

This week I plan on kicking butt though!  And I’m joining the gym again in January! (I would join now, but we don’t have the money because of christmas).   So I’m pretty excited about that.

I think I lose the most weight when I walk around and “play” out side.  Honestly, I dropped the most pounds over the summer because I’d go play on the playground almost every day! (even when it was raining).  I’m still such a kid at heart.   And swinging on the swings, and walking to the playground, and playing on the jungle gym and monkey bars burns a lot more calories then you’d think!! lol   Plus I’d go to the lake and walk the nature trails.

I wish it was warm again!! I always feel stuck in the house over the winter and I honestly don’t know that many good work outs I can do in this tiny apartment.  :(  I think joining the gym will help a lot with that, but it wont be as much fun as going to the play ground

I ate cheese cake for breakfast this morning.  I should have never brought it in the house.  It’s such a weakness!  I don’t even like sweets that much,  I don’t like cake or candy, but I love cheese cake!

I plan on eating light for the rest of the day, and at least doing a work out dvd.

UGH!! Ive been having so many freaking food cravings lately!! And my self control is like a card house in a wind storm!  I lost 5 pounds over the week, then gained 4 pounds back over eating bad stuff ( and to much of it).   How is it even possible for my weight to go up and down like that lol.   hopefully it’ll go back down before my weigh in on monday!!  

Anyone have any tips on how to ignore food cravings?  It mostly starts when I start a new pack of birth control.   During the week of inactive pills I don’t have this problem and I normally lose weight easy, but when I start back it’s like i’m starving and craving foods like crazy!!  

I don’t even like fast food that much, but here lately I want taco bell (I know its gross).  And my boyfriend brought a big thing of christmas cookies last night and they’ve been sitting on the counter all day, and I swear they’re  screaming “EAT ME!”   oh yeah, and last night of all things he wanted to eat pizza.   It’s really hard trying to eat healthy when you live with someone who isnt’ trying to eat healthy and they like the same foods I crave.   How do I control it ? 

For every pound I LOSE I GAIN back in confidence!! I LOVE ITTTTTT!

Notice the picture isn’t a whole body picture lol.  As a chubby girl I think the rest of my body is scared of the camera!  LOL!

I’ve decided to make my weigh in day on mondays.  I’m still gonna step on the scale every day.  I can’t help it!  but I’m only going to write down the weigh in on mondays.

My next mini goal is only 5 pounds away!  I’m hoping to lose those 5 pounds before new years!  and I want to lose at least 15 before my 21st birthday (which is in feb).   I’ve been losing 1 pound every week.   I know it’s not much, but if I kicked my butt in to over drive I could probably be dropping this weight a lot faster.  But I want to be realistic about everything.   It took me a long time to lose 32 pounds (almost a year).   But losing it slow seems to be keeping it off!  And I’m not killing myself to lose every pound.   I’ve just been using common sense.

I’m on birth control now (the pills).  and I get headaches EVERY DAY! does anyone else have this problem?  It makes me want to drink soda (to try and get rid of the headaches).  and I don’t feel like working out while I have a throbbing headache.   But I really don’t want to use this as an excuse.  And I can’t stop taking my pills.   Also, since i’ve been taking them the weight loss has slowed down some… but I’m still losing.  just slowly.   Anyone have any advise ?

Let’s see what else…

I’m suppose to go looking for a car tomorrow!  I’m pretty excited about that!  I’m so tired of sitting around in this apartment all day.   And if I had a car I could go job hunting!  I hate being here all the time it makes me feel worthless.  And it doesn’t help with the weight loss at all.

Oh yeah, and I have two adorable foster puppies!  They’re both females, one is a boxer mix, and the other is a aussie mix.  I’m trying to find them both great homes! (which shouldn’t be a problem.. there’s already a few people interested).

other then that, today has been boring!

I have the flu!  My boyfriend was nice enough to give it to me!  I feel half dead.   All I want to do is lay in bed.   Just getting up and walking to the bath room makes me feel weak.   I look half dead too..  My hair is big and puffy and every which a way because I’ve been laying in bed.   My lips are chapped and dry.   And I’m wearing penguin PJ’s with a band t-shirt.   My cheeks are red (I probably have a fever!).   and I have black circles around my eyes.   I feel so icky right now

I made myself some whole wheat rice earlier, and I only ate about half a bowl.   That’s all I’ve ate today, I didn’t even want to eat that but I forced myself!   My stomach doesn’t hurt or anything,  I’m just seriously that weak.

It really sucks because I was starting to get on track again.   I just got this new work out dvd i’ve been wanting to try out but I don’t even feel like holding my head up right now so that’s not gonna happen haha.

Oh yeah, did I mention my house is a total mess?!  I need to clean up so badly!  And just sitting here in this mess is driving me MAD!!   It looks like a twister came through my living room and kitchen with no mercy!

I can’t believe it’s already December,  am I the only one wondering where this whole year went!?    We’re about to go into 2010!  How crazy is that?!  This whole year just flew by.   It was a good year though.   I just can’t believe it’s almost over.

Anyway,  I hope everyone is feeling better than me today!  haha.  Enjoy the rest of your hump day!

HI EVERYONE!!  I haven’t been on in forever!  We finally have internet back now yay!!

Anyway,  I was wanting to ask everyone what they thought about this, because I like hearing different people’s advise.   Me and my boyfriend are both over weight, and we both want to lose weight, so we’ve decide to have a little “weight loss challenge” but it’s against each other!   We’re going to do it for 12 weeks (3 months).   And who ever wins, gets some sort of prize.    Me and him are both very light hearted, and we can both take a joke, and we both talk crap, and we both realize we need to lose weight.   But I’ve heard it’s bad for relationships to do this sort of thing, in our situation I don’t think so I think it’s just going to motivate me even more to kick his butt!  haha.   Anyways, I just wanted to know what you guys thought about it?  I’m really excited about it!  We’re having a weigh in day every monday.   We just started the challenge yesterday.    And I think he said we should take before, and after pictures!   I might post them on here

Also, I have another question for you guys…   I’ve lost 30 pounds, but my weight loss has slowed down a lot lately (probably because I don’t get out side as much due to the cold weather).   But anyways,  I’ve decided to not only lose weight, but try to get REALLY HEALTHY.. so I’ve been VERY VERY hardcore with the whole diet thing,  I mean only eating fruits, veggies, lean meats, and whole gran breads ect.    But for some reason I’ve been getting HORRIBLE headaches?  I’m thinking it may have something to do with cutting out the soda, but also I think it may have to do with less crabs and fat?  Could my body be having withdrawls from those types of foods?  Or am I talking crazy?   I’ve just been craving fats, mostly CHEESE!

Oh yeah, and I know you’re suppose to have at least 1200 calories a day, but since I’ve only been eating very healthy foods,  I get full after only having 800 or 900 calories, and part of me wants to stop eating for the day, and the other half of me thinks it’s a bad idea because that’s not many calories, but if i’m not hungry does it truely matter?   Any advise would be great!! (I’m guessing it’s because you can eat so much healthy food and it hardly adds up to many calories?).

Anyways, I’ll be on here blogging a lot more now.   I can’t wait to catch up with you guys!  Later!

P.S What should the weight loss challenge winner’s prize be?!!?  Me and my boyfriend have been trying to think of good ideas.. lol